3 years out the window

Hey friends! I had given you a small teaser in my first post about being single and pregnant (every girls dream right)? I felt the need to give you the story between D and I (shortened obvi). So, let's rewind to my freshman year of high school, yikes was that an awkward time. But that’s too far back, and I don’t remember all the awkward details…that’s a lie I do, but aint nobody got time to read that. So lets fast forward to when D and I officially started to date; after years of being hot and cold.

Disclaimer: There are two sides to this story, this is just my side.

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December 24, 2015

I was drugged due to the fact that I had just gotten my tonsils out, and I oh so romantically asked D to be my BF. He obviously said yes, and BOOM after so many failed attempts due to wrong timing and not being ready for this type of commitment we were finally together, and happier than ever. We had our ups and downs; D was in the military, so we were long distance which made it harder for us. But we pushed through and we made it work (until it stopped working). We were so in love, so happy together. We went on numerous trips together (Boston, New Hampshire, New York, Canada, Texas) and every time we went away, we (I) grew fonder and fonder.

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July 2018

The day after the 4 of July comes around and we make the decision to purchase a dog together (in comes Willow) by then, neither of us figured we would be where we are today. We split everything 50\50 she was ours, and we were so excited to expand our family. This is the month we traveled to Canada together. Best vacation ever! Minus the nine hour drive I did solo because princess D slept. We spent a week in Toronto, walked around, went shopping, visited the Aquarium and the zoo, and even drove to the Amusement Park. We talked about getting married constantly, we planned out a future that would never happen. We even discussed children and names we liked.

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December\ January 2018

Christmas 2018 comes, and D was home for the holidays. I was elated. My man was home, and I spent every second I could with him. I slept next to him every single night, woke up next to him every morning. We attended family Christmas parties together, decorated his family tree, celebrated our three year anniversary. All the cheesy couple things you do during the holidays, we did it. We went and looked at engagement rings a few times, I got so giddy; I was going to marry the man of my dreams. Clearly I was wrong, I just didn’t know it yet. New Year's Eve comes, and we kissed at midnight. D wasn't home for the holidays last year, he was deployed over seas, so this New Year's kiss was long overdue, and well worth the wait. Every night before I fell asleep (I always fell asleep first) we told each other how much we loved each other, kissed, and went to bed. The holidays were a good time for us, a time I wish I could go back to and relive one more time.

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March 20, 2019 I'll never forget it. This was the day I announced my (our) pregnancy to the world of Facebook and Instagram followers. All of our friends and family were beyond happy about our bundle of joy. This was also the day D left me, shattered into a million pieces crying myself to sleep in my mothers’ arms (shout out to K for being the best mom ever). He had said he didn’t love me anymore and wanted to make sure he was marrying the right person. Don’t you think that’s something you think about before your long term serious girlfriend gets pregnant? I was crushed, the love of my life was walking away from me, at such a vulnerable time in my life. What kind of person did that? How do you just fall out of love with someone after being so serious and planning a future with them? I clearly knew there was something he wasn’t telling me, I had seen posts on Facebook between him and the mistress, which I just brushed off because he was constantly assuring me he loved me and she had a bf (what a lie that was). A few days passed and I confronted him with a question I already knew the answer to. Did he cheat on me? D said no, how naive did he think I was? I knew the truth, maybe he didn’t want to look like the bad guy? Who knows? All I know is that a week after admitting he had feelings for the mistress they were in a public relationship on Facebook, and I was left with the daily reminder of the man who used to love me.

So that’s it, that’s the shortened (kind of) story about D and I. Three and a half years, a dog, and a baby on the way all thrown out the window for someone else. Thank goodness for friends, family, Smart Carb ice cream, and the amazing break up strategies I've used!

Keep your head up, and know your worth! Happy Wednesday Friends!